Last weekend my son was sick with the flu. So naturally, instead of the PACE run, I stayed home on Sunday to take care and snuggle up with him. That was an easy one for me... being a Mom comes before being a Coach. :) This weekend, I have been battling a very random (and very painful) upper back and neck injury. It started on Friday morning and just felt stiff, like I slept wrong on it. Friday night I hardly slept and Trent had to help me up on the middle of the night to even use the washroom. So again, naturally, I took Saturday off and put my training session to the side so I could focus on the PACE run the next day. I did hot/cold contrasts. Used a lacrosse ball to roll any tender and sore spots on my back/neck while standing up-right against the wall. Had Epsom salt bath. Even took some prescription ibuprofen. By last night I was actually able to ly down and roll in supine position. I thought it was getting better and went to bed optimistic.
2hrs later I woke up in pain again and this continued all night. On and off, not being able to get comfortable or lift my head off the pillow. I finally sent the PACE team a text at 4am, letting go of the fact that I would not be able to join everyone again this Saturday. I felt frustrated and pissed off. Mostly because I don't want to let anyone down who signs up for a clinic and/or who I am coaching. I also have strong values in that I need to walk the walk, as a coach, in order for my athletes to learn and trust me. So not getting out there with them to support them really bothered me. Then I realized that my staying home IS walking the walk. And that listening to my body is exactly what I ask each and every one of my athletes to do. And if their back/neck felt as mine did - I wouldn't hesitate in prescribing rest, other alternatives and be the first to rearrange their training schedule to account for this setback. I get that we need to feel reassurance that moving forward, any missed session wouldn't be the end of the world.
At the end of the day, I see the lesson for me as a coach: to continue to walk the walk and that sometimes will mean you walk alone and not be out with your athletes. As an athlete: to accept the things I cannot change and focus on getting better. The sooner I take care of things, the sooner I get back in the game with everyone.
It doesn't mean I am still not looking out my window at the two t's this morning and wondering how everyone is doing or missing the company and camaraderie. I trust that everyone is also learning their intended lesson in training today and taking them one step closer to their goals...